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Learning lessons the hard way. . .

Learning lessons the hard way. . .

Most of the lessons are learned when the test is over; I guess that’s the irony of life… it is so sad, I know . . . but then we always have choices.

Hurts, pains . . . why do we always have to go through all these just to learn the simplest lessons in our life?

Why do we have to shed gallons of tears just to see it was not worth it crying at all?

Why do we have to suffer doing sacrifices when we are just taken for granted at all times?

Why must we get wounded defending some people when those some are the ones causing us pains?

Why must we extend our understanding to its longest end when we are only dealing with insensitive people?

Why must we always listen to people who never stops talking about themselves and never even thought of asking what we think?

Why must we let people do things for us without letting them know what we really want?

Why must we apologize to people who have committed the sins to us?

Why do we have to feel jealous to people who doesn’t even give a damn to our existence?

Why must we continue caring to people whom we know are just playing games with us?

Why must we forgive people who don’t know what “I’m sorry” really means?

Why must we continue befriending someone who is destroying and stabbing us at the back?

Why must we continue giving light to someone who refuses to leave the darkness?

Why must we continue questioning someone who doesn’t even hear our asking?

Whether we admit it or not, we as human beings never say no to challenges. That’s why even the simplest thing to learn, we want to learn them the hard way. I guess that’s humanly understandable.

However, due to this kind of character, we sometimes forget that things also get complicated. People are hurt; hearts are torn into pieces; promises are broken; eyes shed tears;

When we realize that things are complicated, we realize to change for the better just when the situation got worse; we realize to finally correct our mistakes just when those mistakes have caused irreversible damages; we decide to prove ourselves worthy just when the person whom we want to prove our worth has decided that we are not worth it at all;




Uly Nemesis

How can I not?

How can I not?
Uly Nemesis

I was often told. . .
That I shouldn't let go,
Of those I can't afford to lose;
That I shouldn't let go of friends,
Even with whatever odds I'll face;

But how can I not cry,
If a friend causes me strife?
How can I not feel sorrow,
If a friend hurts me so?
How can I not remember the pains,
If it’s the same mistakes everyday?

How can I not demand,
If I'm always taken for granted?
How can I not surrender,
If I am left alone and abandoned?
How can I not retreat,
If the one I've been fighting for,
Leaves me hanging on the air?

How can I not give up,
If a friend pushes me away?
How can I think of happiness,
If he does not even think of my sorrow?
How can I say I'm fine,
If he doesn't even bother asking me,
If how am I?

How can I not feel little,
If a friend thinks my words are bitter?
How can I be confident,
If all I do is listen?
How can I talk,
If he won't even stop talking?

How can I be a friend,
In times of need and difficulty,
If he does not even want me to?
How can I not give up,
If he won't let me have the chance,
To voice out the reasons,
Why I hang on for so long?

How can I not be scared,
It should be courage he gives,
But I eat fears instead?
How can we be called BESTFRIENDS,
If he lets a single mistake,
Ruin and destroy our relationship?

I was often told. . .
That I shouldn't let go,
Of those I can't afford to lose;
That I shouldn't let go of friends,
Even with whatever odds I'll face;

Whatever may happen to this FRIENDSHIP,
It is not I who gave up, nor the one who let go!

Friendship is us. . .

Friendship is us. . .

You hear so much of what people say,
You forgot God answers what we pray.
You see so much of what people think,
You forgot what we really mean.
You think so much of what people see,
You forgot it’s not them, but you and me.

People think we can’t be friends,
As if we live in different universe.
People see us both with malice,
But we know what friendship really is.
People may say a lot about us,
As if we’re dirty rats,
But we shouldn’t let that weaken us,
So this valued friendship would last.

Please, don’t give up,
Think about what we got.
Listen to laughter of happiness,
Smile to our shared memories.
We are hard to understand, I know,
But as long as we keep firm, we’ll grow.
Let’s fight this battle together,
We are strong if we trust each other.
Be tough and positive, we must,
It’s not about them, coz friendship is us.
Please don’t give up.

Stones have been thrown to us before,
But it passed and we are still whole.
Tears and pains have tried our trust,
This new battle, can we not last?

Please don’t give up,
This friendship is what we got.
Please don’t give up,
Think why we have last.
Please don’t give up. . .
Trust me, it will all pass.

Taken for granted!

TAKEN FOR GRANTED!
Uly Nemesis

I gave my all,
I gave my best,
I gave my soul,
Can’t I get thanks?

I gave my everything,
I denied myself.
I believe your lies,
And never compromised.

I was there when you need me,
I’ve always held my hand for you.
You always cause me hurt,
And a single sorry you never said.

You’ve always taken me for granted.
You always ask me to back you up,
And when it’s done, I’m left cracked.
You smile, and then stab my back,
You’ve always taken me for granted.

Is it hard to say sorry,
For all the hurts you caused me?
Is it hard to say thank you,
For all the bests I did for you

Falling in love with your best. . .

Falling in love with your best..

You have a friend..your best buddy… bestfriend and that your so close together it’s like a day isn’t complete without spending time with him….You’ve been sharing life together for so long..There are no secrets between you..His life is yours and yours is his too.. Suprisingly..it strucked you.You just realized how much he meant to you and taht you’re longing for his touch..his presence and care.. He became your sunshine after the rain. The center of your life. The scent of the flowers. You are feeling something beyond friendship..You’ve fallen in love with him.. But..it’s not new to you that falling with your best isn’t easy, it never was.. Still, you’re willing to embrace all the pains and sacrifices taht may come your way..you’re hopelessle in loved and devoted to him.. You’ve grown so comfortable with him, for so long a time. for honesty’s ake..you even told him how you feel..You told him that you love him and more thatn a friend.. you beg for him to let you love him."You don’t have to love me back" you said..Then he said"It’s okey..I understand.." You’re overjoyed..It’s like a dream come true. You became much closer and got a tighter bond. Your days spent with him seems to be the happiest of all..Almost, you became his strength whenever he’s weak.. You’re always there by his side ready to help every step of the way..A shoulder to cry on.. Someoen he could lean on..Someone he could turn to anytime he’ll be needing help. You felt like he’s feeling the same way too.Eventually, that feeling grew strong and made you hope for the impossible..Suddenly, without even a sign of hesitation..he told you that he just had a girlfriend..The worst is, he’s expecting you to befriend his girl.. You felt like a glass shattered into pieces.Yoiu felt like being betrayed and dumped..It was an undescriabable kind of pain..How you wished that the ground would just open up and swallow you whole.but then, you decided to go with the flow..You love him so much that you’re willing to scarifice for eternity..You sontinued being with him.Hoping that everything would be just fine, That nothing’s going to change..It would still be the same..Unfortunately, you’re wrong..After all your efforts, shaded tears, and pains, it’s not what it used to be.He’d grown so insensitive and inconsiderate towards you.He’s doing things, he knows from the start, that hurts you..Whenever you have fight over things and issues, you’re always wrong and he’s always right..Even when his girl is pissing you off. he would only say.."She’s just joking..Don’t be so sensitive.."It seems like he’s killing you slowly and painfully..It’s like,he wants you out of his life.. Often times, our heart grows tired of hoping, understanding, of waiting and forgiving..Then there would be no other best choice but to leave..After all the tears, heartaches and countless hurts he’d caused you, you decided to leave. You decided to stop being stupid..Enough of this foolishness..Enough of this non-sense..You just want to fall out of it..Move on and try going another way..For the sake, you baid goodbye to him and said it’s for the best..Yet you left him this words.."I’d still be here..even if I’m not the one you need.."Then you walked away with tears in your eyes after seeing relief in his eyes.How could he be so naive?..Even for the last time.. god was helping you..The days were made too busy for you that you don’t have time to think of him..you’ve gone with your friends..you’re happy with them that it helped healing those wounds of yours.You’re your old self again..You’ve learned to forget him, alomost..you’re able to break the magic apell that made a fool out of you..you fall out of love..So to say..you’re moving on.. All is well, as theys ay..Then suddenly, all your friends been breaking teh same news to you..They’ve all been talking about your old buddy.."He loves you.." They say.."He wants you back and he wants you badly.." Unexpectedly, he came to you one day..Asked you how things are going and how are you..For old time’s sake, you decided to have a talk with him..Only to find out that what he’s going to say will only make you fall out of composure.."I’m sorry..I didn’t mean to hurt you.I love you..I was damn so stupid of letting someone like you go.." Those were the words..Words you’re longing to hear..Words that would totally heal all the wounds.But not anymore, not from him..You have fallen out of love..The magic wasn’t there.The feeling was gone..But he’s right there in fron of you..Almost tears in his eyes, begging you for another chance.saying soory for all the pains he caused you.Telling you words of love and that he couldn’t live a life without you.. What would you feel?.. Flattery?.. Shock?.. Anxiety?.. What would you do?..Reach for his arms?..Dry his tears and embracehim?.Decide to give it another try?..Teach yourself to love him again?.. Or maybe rage in anger?.. Regret?.. Love is so ironic..It opens your eyes, but makes you blind..Opens your mind but makes you stupid..It fills your heart with desire then tears it apart..Sometimes, we fall for the wrong people thinking they are the one..We cry and get hurt.Then realized they’re not the one.We move on and it takes us long of dping so.. Then after we leave, they come runing to us.Saying sorry.Telling how much they love us..It’s too late.After all the pains?..The magic isn’t there anymore..It was long gone..We couldn’t find it in out heart to love them again..Sometimes, words of love , tends to hurt us..It brings unhappy memories.. So what is it going to be?.. Go with him and gamble?. Or maybe for the best,just maybe, simply say.."Iwant to..but I just can’t.."

Finding Real Friends. . .

Finding Real Friends

School, books, internet . . . that’s all he’s been living with. He never hangout with friends although he has considerable numbers of them. It’s not that he’s weird or aloof, he’s just scared of investing emotions to anyone or anything. He had been friendly once but events turned to a point where he must let go, and must get hurt. He promised never to gamble again. He found safety in not wanting to have people to care for. In this, he would never worry about losing anyone or anything, again.

He’s been living in the shadows for so long a time, avoiding any sunlight and happiness that he thinks would never last. He’s been lying in the safety that his shell could offer, denying the joys and laughs he hears. Until, a hand reached for him.

Karen is a well-known personality in their school. It maybe because of the crown and title she achieved on a school’s beauty contest or maybe it was because of her kindness and simplicity or maybe . . . because of her beauty. They have been classmates in several subjects although they are taking different degree courses. They talk sometimes and do things and school stuff sometimes. However, he always makes sure that they will remain just acquainted. He’s been casual to her just the way he treats everyone else.

Maybe it was Karen’s kindness that left his heart to at least have some soft spots. Since their subjects require group presentations and reporting, they have been doing the same things together. Sometimes they even spend meals together and talk about anything under the sun. He was not aware that his heart is slowly opening up again. He’s beginning to befriends with people again,. Then he just woke up one morning being used to Karen’s presence.

It has been natural to him to be very observant. Although he is talkative, he always find a moment to listen to what really people say, reading between the lines as others may put it. He even observes how people react even with the most ordinary happenings of every day. That is how he finds and knows the real people.

Karen made him comfortable and at ease every time they talk. At first, all the talks they share would only go to one of his ear and then runs out of his other ear. Karen had been very insistent on her friendship and it touched him. She’s been there to offer help and support, even he doesn’t ask her to. Karen made efforts that made him feel as if he really matters and that he has worth. So, he decided to step out of the shadows, to have a peak out of his shells. He accepted Karen’s friendship.

They always spend time together now. They even spend meals more often and tell jokes while dining. They even have time talking about their dreams, their ideas and sometimes even matters about the heart. They have been friends indeed. He appreciated Karen’s trust whenever she runs to him for comfort and when she tells even about her darkest secrets. At times when she laments about something, about someone, she made him feel that he was able to ease her pains just by mere listening.

They became close together that even Karen’s boyfriend became his friend. However, he makes sure, always, that he’s never on the way between the two. He stayed casual with Karen’s boyfriend. Sometimes, Karen would tell him about her joys and pains. She sometimes would tell him about problems in relationship and even when she needs advices for decision-makings.

Unfortunately, Karen and her boyfriend broke up. The broke up just made him and Karen closer. He became Karen’s shoulder to lean on. It was on that time when he finally gave Karen his full trust, his truest care and his valuable friendship. He was there at the time when Karen was distraught and struggling to move on. He was there when Karen is paddling on a boat in a sea of angry tides and storms. He offered lights during Karen’s darkest hours until they found a new shore, a new life for her.

After the storms, she was able to find the sun again. She has finally moved on. She’s ready to fall in love again.

After considerable amount of time, she fell in love again.

She fell in love with Earon.

Earon is a very nice guy, good looking, and a popular personality since he is one of the ace players of the school’s basketball team.

Although Karen had Earon, he was still there when Karen had inhibitions, when she needs someone to talk to when she must decide about something, about her and Earon. He gave her support. He never became tired of helping; instead, he was touched because Karen trust him so much that she runs to him anytime she needs help.

Earon and Karen fell in love and became lovers. They seem to find contentment and happiness to each other. It was then that he decided to leave. He would not fit on the scene anymore. His job is done. He told Karen about his plans. “I’m used to being alone,” he tried to convince her; “three would always be a crowd Karen. I’d still be your friend no matter what happens but I must give this time for the both of you!”

He believes that they have reached the point of the river where the path is divided and that they must travel on their own.

To his surprise, they would never even let him out of their sights. Karen begged him to stay and Earon offered him friendship. It took an amount of time to think about such offer. Karen would always send for him anytime Earon would ask her out. Earon would smile and ask him along too. Just to avoid further arguments, he would just say yes to them but sometimes, he would give the reasons so he could not go with them. Unfortunately, they never believed any of his made-up stories. They know him more than anyone, especially Earon.

Earon treated him well. Maybe out of choice or whatever was the reason, he accepted Earon’s friendship. They became so close until a point came that Earon was like a brother to him. He never expected it to happen. To care for other people again. Even Earon’s family became his friends. Earon made him feel at ease just the way Karen did before. They even tell jokes now. They talk about their childhood, their dreams, and their ideas and sometimes, Earon would tell him about the things that bother him, about him and Karen. The three of them became so close that it made people throw gossip out of spite or envy.

People would tell him that Earon and Karen are just using him, making him as their chaperon. Sometimes he would just laugh and take it as a joke. But there are times that he would get hurt yet he would still try to reason with himself: “Why should I even listen to a bunch of fools?” People don’t know the bond and care and respect that exist among the three. They only see what seems to be happening. They do not have the eyes to look deeper. They are friends and they respect each other, that is more than enough.

When Earon and Karen have misunderstanding, they would always run to him, for guidance and for understanding. It never fails to touch him. Karen would tell him things that trouble her, about things she could not understand, about Earon. Earon would do the same. But what touched him more about Earon is when he would tell him about his deepest feelings, his desires, his childhood memories, his future plans and even his darkest side. He knows that it is not easy for men to be emotional, to share their innermost self and Earon is not an exemption, that’s why he appreciated it a lot. He believes that Earon and Karen trust him so much enough to include him in their plans, in their decisions, and in their lives.

I never cared for friends the way I’m caring for them now. Maybe it was out of respect or maybe it is because they care for me too. I care for them not only because they make me feel I belong but because I think they are the friends worth caring for. They taught me great lessons about life and I will continue to do the same. As Earon may put it, “I like friends who are true and thoughtful. Those who would accept me for what I am and not for what I have or what I can offer. I yearn for friends who really care for me, who would be there for me not only in times of happiness but even also at times of trouble.”

People may tell me that I’m a fool. They may tell me that I am a chaperon or a maid. So what if I seem to be a maid or a chaperon or a P.A.? At least I’m serving the people I care for and whom I know cares for me too. I would rather be with them and let people talk on my back than spend my time with other people and deny myself the happiness I have always wanted. Earon and Karen are family now. They have been there for me in times of happiness and even at times of my insanity that’s why I would continue to do the same for them

I don’t know if their lives have been better or worst because of me, but mine had meaning because of them. Who knows, I might have found a purpose for my life. That is, to care not only to people who cares for me but also to those whoa re distraught and in need of attention. Earon and Karen taught me how to care, taught me lessons I would never learn at home or even at the four corners of my classrooms. That must be the reason why I would continue to be their friend for as long as they need me.

I found not only a purpose for my life but also real friends whom I would continue to care for until the crabs learn to fly.